a givenness to Advent whether

What do I have a GIVENNESS NOW to?
Advent whether.
“It is beautiful Advent weather, greyish and cold, with clouds of light snow howling across the valley, and I see it is really winter.
I put some bread out for the birds.
I feel closer to my beginning than ever…” Thomas Merton, December 9, 1962, Journal IV, 272-73
…whether or not I begin again.
I have a GIVENNESS NOW to Advent whether.
